Rule #32 - Enjoy the little things
I need to fucking stop. I need to stop being sad. Fuck. It’s pissing me off so much. I’m not alone or anything, I have people to talk to, but it doesn’t fucking help. I don’t know what’s wrong. I have a job now, I thought that MAYBE that would help a little bit. Why the fuck am I so unhappy?!
These tears, falling
On my cheeks, no reason
I’m scared is all, don’t worry
I just have moments. Very happy moments, then very sad and down moments. I think too damn much. About now, about the future. What my plans are. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I know I don’t need to figure that out at this point and time, but it still scares me that I don’t know what the future holds for me.
I’m trying to run and eat better so I can feel better about my body. I love it and I think it’s beautiful, but there is room for improvement (toning).
I also wanna start taking pictures more. I won a crap ton of dark room equipment through Facebook that I’m going to setup at my parents so I can start doing film photography (my favorite kind, along with studio digital photography) I just need a film camera. My grandparents have one that they don’t use apparently and it’s in good condition, I hope they give it to me when I ask about it.
Oh I’m also reading, which has actually made me a bit happier. Just won the “Kurt Cobain Journals” through Facebook as well. Got it for $2.50 and it originally retails at $45 Canadian?! STEAL! I’m reading other things at the moment, but I did read the first few pages. Can’t wait to get into more.